It's completely not like me to plan ahead like this, but I want to start buying things I will need for the summer. I updated my goals page yesterday, and that's when it hit me that it's only 3 months before I can start riding my bike, and not much after that hiking will begin. If I wait until May I wont be prepared, and it was a lack of equipment that stopped me from doing several things with my chum last summer. Don't want to make that mistake again.

I need to get:

• Daypack with hydration
• hiking boots
• hiking clothing
• cycling clothing
• mountain bike
• sunglasses
  

This is my shopping list so I will update it alo

I present the Shakeolgy Tropical Berry Smoothie :)

I just wanna, like take this moment, to give myself, a gold star. Biiiinng:

Five days in a row with eating healthy, and 3 workouts. I do not think I have done that before, ever. Yay me! I super gold! Sadly, it wont be 6 days in a row, as I am going for all you can eat sushi tomorrow night. However, I am also going skating earlier in the day, so that's better than nothing right. Keep telling myself that.

Today I did something I didn't think I could do. I made a mini bag of smart microwave popcorn, and didn't add any extra margarine or salt to it. Usually I add a spoonful of margarine and tell myself it's probably less than what they put on the regular popcorn. Then I do the inside of my brain equivalent to putting my hands over my ears, and dump a bunch of my favorite kind of sodium on it, table salt. I can only lie to myself for so long and then I have to put the blockers on and don't let my eyes write to my brain's hard drive. Read Only Access. Not today baby!

So I feel kind of proud of myself. I think I will have a glass of Sifto to celebrate.

Okay, let's review the past week
Monday - good
Tuesday - good
Wednesday - good
Thursday - not so good
Friday - terrible
Saturday - the worst
Sunday - good

Hey 4 out of 7 is a start. And today was really good so the week is off to a decent start.

And then out of nowhere comes the attack of the KFC bucket!! BAM!

I ducked and it missed me!! Sailed right on by. Smushed into the wall and pieces of chicken flew out, stuck to the wall and, I kid you not, dribbled down to the floor. 

Okay I made most of that up. But my friend did indeed purchase this bucket o' goodness in Calgary especially for us to share for the Superbowl. Wow, not only was it hard to say "no" for my health, I was also letting down my friend. Sorry Albert, cant do it. I told him I have to lose 50 lbs before the mid of May, and he said "I'll be watching you." A bit threatening, perhaps, but then again he did go ALL the way to Calgary to pick up the Colonels 11 secret herbs and spices. 

I can't stop looking at the bucket. It's beautiful. a symbol of everything I must leave behind to accomplish my goal. F--k'n hell, it's not just a symbol, IT IS WHAT I MUST LEAVE BEHIND. 

I've just been invited to all you can eat sushi on Friday. F--king hell.

mmmm, cold cut sandwiches

Bacon. Oh my.

Just give me 10 minutes with this

Yummy! Me, I am going to watch the big game at a friends house, and plan on not eating anything or drinking any booze. They say it can't be done. They might be right. Yet I, one man in the world, will try to climb that mountain of impossibility tonight. I will go where NO men have gone before. I may be laughed at, chided, suffer junk food discrimination and even peer-pressure. Am I nervous? Hell yes!

Had a lunch meeting today, and uh oh. I fell off the wagon. 3 good days and then this.

Maybe I should rename this blog to "Things I could eat because they are right in front of me, but I wont"

My daughter asked for this for supper, so I made it for her.

Ground beef is one of my favorite things. Cheese, cant get enough of it really. Nachos.... OMG. 

Maybe I'm complaining too much. Fair. Yet this is all about my painful trip from a portly-pudge-face to something resembling less than that. It's f-ing hard, man. Am I a saint? Well.... no. 

Ate pretty good today and burned over 1000 calories at squash. So far  2 days are complete without binge eating or eating really bad stuff. And just a few more hours to make 3 :)

I give you the Meteor pizza from BP's. Packed with ham, pepperoni, sausage, slathered in mozzarella. 

There is sat, mere inches from my grasp. Tantalizing tentacles of glory wafting into my nostrils.

And nearby, a drink sits. That's mine. Good ol' vodka lime soda. No pizza for me. 

I am so hungry. Must eat EVERYTHING. The kid's leftover steak bits? Must eat!! The Italian salad dressing? Must drink!! The couch and the TV and the empty BBQ sauce bottle and the Snorks? MUST EAT IT ALL!!! This laptop I'm using to hammer out this post? Nah.... too crunchy.

Damn it. 

To top it off I forgot to drink the shakeology today. Truth be told, I now have an extra month's supply of shakeology due to always forgetting. I need to remember, it gives me energy.

Damn I'm hungry. 

Lots of temptations came at me today. My friend asked me out to lunch. I've learned that there is not many places I can go for a healthy lunch. No way am I paying 15 bucks for a salad and getting the sauce on the side. I guess I could do Subway... but I went yesterday. 
My daughter wanted to make deserts tonight. I am sad but I cant do it. I wont be able to stop myself from eating it. No no no.
My friend wants to hang out later tonight, probably at Boston Pizza or Timmy's. Gah.

No workout today. I'm playing squash tomorrow, so I will need 2 more workouts this week.

The worst part is the next 4 hours. I got through last night, and have to get through this one too. GAH.