Had a lunch meeting today, and uh oh. I fell off the wagon. 3 good days and then this.

Maybe I should rename this blog to "Things I could eat because they are right in front of me, but I wont"

My daughter asked for this for supper, so I made it for her.

Ground beef is one of my favorite things. Cheese, cant get enough of it really. Nachos.... OMG. 

Maybe I'm complaining too much. Fair. Yet this is all about my painful trip from a portly-pudge-face to something resembling less than that. It's f-ing hard, man. Am I a saint? Well.... no. 

Ate pretty good today and burned over 1000 calories at squash. So far  2 days are complete without binge eating or eating really bad stuff. And just a few more hours to make 3 :)

I give you the Meteor pizza from BP's. Packed with ham, pepperoni, sausage, slathered in mozzarella. 

There is sat, mere inches from my grasp. Tantalizing tentacles of glory wafting into my nostrils.

And nearby, a drink sits. That's mine. Good ol' vodka lime soda. No pizza for me. 

I am so hungry. Must eat EVERYTHING. The kid's leftover steak bits? Must eat!! The Italian salad dressing? Must drink!! The couch and the TV and the empty BBQ sauce bottle and the Snorks? MUST EAT IT ALL!!! This laptop I'm using to hammer out this post? Nah.... too crunchy.

Damn it. 

To top it off I forgot to drink the shakeology today. Truth be told, I now have an extra month's supply of shakeology due to always forgetting. I need to remember, it gives me energy.

Damn I'm hungry. 

Lots of temptations came at me today. My friend asked me out to lunch. I've learned that there is not many places I can go for a healthy lunch. No way am I paying 15 bucks for a salad and getting the sauce on the side. I guess I could do Subway... but I went yesterday. 
My daughter wanted to make deserts tonight. I am sad but I cant do it. I wont be able to stop myself from eating it. No no no.
My friend wants to hang out later tonight, probably at Boston Pizza or Timmy's. Gah.

No workout today. I'm playing squash tomorrow, so I will need 2 more workouts this week.

The worst part is the next 4 hours. I got through last night, and have to get through this one too. GAH.

I am back. But is it for good? I cant answer that. I can hope it is.

So. Where to begin? No idea. It's probably why I havent written in so long. Where does one start?

I'll say what I know. In less than 4 months I am going to the Dominican, which is in what I refer to as "the heat zone." Big guys like me from Canada do not go to the heat zone. Big guys from Florida maybe, but not from the Great White North. 

I would like to lose some of the blubber before getting on the plane in a parka. Months back when I was following a program, the plan was to lose 80 lbs. That wont happen now, but I know if I took 50 off I would be in a good place. So that's my new goal now. Like the song, "I got a new goal, now." 

What? It's "girl, now?" Whatevs.

I seem to fail when I try to think too far ahead, so I will keep my goals simple. Today is Monday. My goal is to eat relatively decently all week, including no night binge sessions, and work out 4 times by the end of Sunday. That's all. I played squash today so 3 more workouts to go. Yay me.